"If i had a chance to return to where i was before, i shall be where i've nvr been, say what i've nvr said, do what i've nvr done".
Time works as antidote, but it is as well the poison i'm feeding myself now. Return me to the past for just 2 minutes, give me the 2 minutes again and i shall do what i've never done, said what i've nvr said. It's been almost 10 years, it's burdening me. My friend told me, "you're silly, silly for so many years and you still wanna be silly?, reveal yourself!". There's no fear i know while driving fast, while fighting, while finding troubles, communicating with new ppl and lots more but just when i come to this. Maybe i gave in, gave it a try to perhaps provide signs today, whether it works or not, i'm stupid, might remain stupid as well, but at least, i could at least know the truth. I'm sorry, i'm wretched, i just don't know what to say or even what to do. And thx my friend, for pushing me to even try.
