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Tonight, my mind caught hold of the names of some oldies i've heard when young, the longer i stayed quiet, the more i recalled. Wonder what triggers my mind to. So i searched youtube for the songs and Tadaa!, it's right there. As i listened to them, loads of memories returned back when i was still a young kid who knows of just playing, eating, helping my parents and my own desires. It was 15 years behind, when i was still playing happily at my dad's factory. That was where we stayed together years back. Me, my brother, mom, dad, uncle, aunt and 3 of my little cousins(there are still 3 of them yet to be born). We were all staying in a classic, simple and comfortable place back then. We used to work together, play together and dine together. Arguments are unavoidable at times. Dad often play these songs loud in da room and we will be runnin around wit da kids downstairs whereby aunt and mom will be preparing food and uncle will usually be reading newspaper in the office. It was so harmony back then that i was still so young to even know what's the meaning of "Harmony". During CNY, grandparents will come along together with another aunt and her husband. As usual, the music are played loud, mom n aunts will be cookin, grandma will be talking to us, dad and uncle n grandpa will be reading newspapers. 15 years past just like a dream to me, just like a blink of an eye. Everything is now different, I'm now a grown child, so are the other kids, uncle is no longer with us nor asking me to company him for food, or playing fireworks with me anymore. Gramps are getting older, Mom and dad is getting more busy with daily work. We no longer stay together, my family moved to our own house for 9 years already, so is my aunt and her kids, uncle left us for somewhere really far, gramps aren't around as often, brothers and cousins are grown and more outgoing, i barely see them myself. Sometimes i asked myself, how did these 15 years passed? how did i not realised? how many precious things and people have i wasted? It hurts everytime I thought about it, but the memories are just so Beautiful. It remains for eternity.

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A$ W3 AR3 @GlN9

When we were young, everything seems to be fine than now. Needless bother what's goin on around. When we were young, people seemed to be all around, everynight we slept sweet and sound. When we were young, schooling seems to be easier than now, friends seemed to be happier around.

Now, as we are aging, everything seems to be a worry now. Cautious of what's happening around. As we are aging, more people around found to be buried under the ground, often hear people crying out sound. As we are aging, working is no longer for the sake of "now", buddies are no longer staying around, couples are always fools gathered around.

How i wished people always gather around, for no worry of future and now, couples happily living and doesn't break their vow, everybody could sleep sweet and sound, kids are happily playing around, elderly aren't worried being buried to the ground, guys are happily working till dawn, girls are patiently waiting for their gown, no disease is spread around, politics stay stable on the ground, police do not need having extra rounds, no families will be having financial bounds. :-)

A D@y t0 R3m3Mb3R D@ d3C3@SeD

He left us for 3 years. I was still young before he left us, didn't really had good times wit him. He was a nice person, only that he might be a little naive at times. Flashed back times spent with him, generous person who actually tried to get along with me as i grow but he just don't have much time. Wasn't really thinking of those earlier as I was young and didn't know how to communicate in return. The only thing i recall when i am getting into the pre-matured age is that I brought him to where he tasted good Lamb steak and it was during his final stage in life. He was suffering from therapy earlier and then got into very bad condition after. The last i could remember seeing him, he was in a very weak condition, which he could barely speak or even recognize people he knew. Was heart-piercing seeing him this way. Wasn't a bad guy and why do he need to suffer such pain? Life's unfair, we don't have a choice. He was an outgoing person and I no longer see him now and after. Wondering how would it be if he didn't have that disease? Is he much relieved now in the afterlife? Does Afterlife really exists? Or will he be happier if he is still alive now? My dear uncle, Never mentioned that when you lived. Did you know you're not forgotten? for what good you did to us, for how you always looked and acted. What's left from you to us now is just memories, good memories. :-)

Years that made me a "Jerk" to you. Im Sorry.

Trying to start from scratch where you n me actually felt comfortable for at least a friend. Well I didn't know how and why did it went wrong. Asked you but it never came to an answer. From strangers to someone we know, from someone we knew to friends, from friends to close, and from close it somehow reversed. Till now, i don't really get what are we. Tried to really get off hands and start from scratch and you somehow just said "Jerk" that stunned me for several minutes. How'd I really piss you off, I don't know. But that really struck very hard. Tried not to utter a word but I'd better leave to prevent more conflict. Knowing u 5 years making me a "Jerk" that i never expected myself to be towards a friend or maybe to a stranger as well.... I always thought being a bad person doesnt mean a bad friend, having bad attitude doesn't mean they're treating u bad. I never know if im a bad person or if i had bad attitudes. Sorry for this silly post ppl, just let me emo for the night and i'll be fine. gdnite.

2010 年

2010年都开始了， 东西都不一样了。 在也不是小孩了。 有人说她是长不大的小孩， 我确说是小孩多好。 也要开始寻找了， 寻找工作， 寻找金钱， 寻找人生究竟是为了什么， 寻找一生的伴女。 漫长的路途一眨眼， 也走了不少的路程。 有时还要往后看一看， 看下留了什么人， 什么东西。 新年快乐。