The closer you are, the further you feel

:-) I knew this and i knew it so well. Sometimes it's better to be at a distance than try to step ahead.

Wisdom is not by seeing how shallow others are, True wisdom is by seeing how shallow self is and knowing what self doesn't.

You are wise not by saying he's stupid but collect and learn what the stupid is capable of.

"WISE" is when one knows complicated things, "Shallow" is when they know small general things, True wisdom is when you try to know everything.

Learn without thinking begets ignorance. Think without learning is dangerous.

Arrogance portrays the shallow, True wisdom presents the humble.

Living
Waiting, is part of the living process,
Learning, gathers what living means,
Preparing, allows the worst to fall upon the living,

Living is about Waiting for the result while Learning whats around, thus, Preparing for what's coming.

God
People tends to ask themselves always "Where's god?", "Can god help me?", "What's god doing when i'm suffering?" and "Will god forgive me for what i've done?". But not to be forgotten to ask yourself how did you come to stand wherever you are? If he had ever left you, you will not be where you are. He had never left you, he will never leave you. Everything that happened, it happened for a reason. Be happy it happened, and you will see beyond the dark clouds that the clear blue sky is waiting for you.

The Cl053R t0 @N 3Nd, M3@n5 D@ cL053R To d@ N3W b3GiNnInG

Lately, lotsa people was tellin me that "We're comin to an end, what should I do? tell me pls, I don't want this to happen.". Well, being in the shoes of them i guess i would say that too as it is definitely hard in the beginning. However, after staying apart from "Those" trouble, i shall see it clearly as it is uneccessary to hide urself in one corner, torturing your own mentality for "Them" who doesnt worth your time and suffer. An end doesn't actually mean an end to us as we should always feel "we good to live(活着就好)", we shall see the new beginning beyond the 3nD. A Cl3@r BlU3 Sky shall appear after the Storm. Climb across the mountain, you shall see your piece of paradise.

As the fallen dried leaf, the time passes. It will only touch the ground, never return to it's branch.

It's another year again, another new beginning or the nearer to ending. The fallen leaf brings upon beauty when dawn comes. See how it falls in beauty, see how it lays on the ground in beauty. Just as how we should see our live. See how we came to the world in such beauty and how we leave in beauty as the fallen leave will only continue falling till it reaches the ground and never return to it's branch. See our live in such beauty as we only live once. Not one moment stops for any reason. Happy Chinese New Year 2010! :-)

Love

What do you think love can do? Do comment and your opinions :-)

1'M N0T Y0U, 1 W1LL NVR KN0W Y0U L1K3 Y0U D0

*Living on means to go through the ups and downs, tasting the bitter and sweet. Neither me or you is an exception. Learn to drop some sugar to the Coffee my friend.*

别再说是谁的错, 让一切成灰.

Don't keep blaming, just let everything fade, my friend.

除非放下心中的负累, 一切难以挽回.

Learn to lay down the burden else you are just missing alot, my friend.

你总爱让往事跟随, 怕过去白费.

You my friend, just love the pasts to move along with you, afraid what happened is wasted.

你总以为要体会人生, 就要多爱几回.

You always thought, to taste the bit of life, you shouldn't be letting off any chances.

Thx to

遺憾 - 方炯鑌 lyrics

As a medium to speak to a friend.

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Fang Jiong Bin (A-Bin)- yi han 遗憾 Regrets lyrics

别再说是谁的错
bie zai shuo shi shei de cuo
让一切成灰
rang yi qie cheng hui
除非放下心中的负累
chu fei fang xia xin zhong de fu lei
一切难以挽回
yi qie nan yi wan hui
你总爱让往事跟随
ni zong ai rang wang shi gen sui
怕过去白费
pa guo qu bai fei
你总以为要体会人生
ni zong yi wei yao ti hui ren sheng
就要多爱几回
jiu yao duo ai ji hui

与其让你在我怀中枯萎
yu qi rang ni zai wo huai zhong ku wei
宁愿你犯错后悔
ling yuan ni fan cuo hou hui
让你飞向梦中的世界
rang ni fei xiang meng zhong de shi jie
留我独自伤悲
liu wo du zi shang bei
与其让你在我爱中憔悴
yu qi rang ni zai wo ai zhong qiao cui
宁愿你受伤流泪
ling yuan ni shou shang liu lei
我非要你尝尽了苦悲
wo fei yao ni chang jin le ku bei
才懂真情可贵
cai dong zhen qing ke gui

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如果大海能够,唤回曾经的爱.
就让我用一生等待.
如果深情往事,你已不再留恋.
就让它随风飘远.
如果大海能够,带走我的哀愁.
就象带走每条河流.
所有受过的伤,所有流过的泪.
我的爱……
请全部带走.

从那遥远海边,慢慢消失的你,
本来模糊的脸,竟然渐渐清晰.
想要说些什么,又不知从何说起,
只有把它防在心底.

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茫然走在海边,看那潮来潮去,
徒劳无功,想把每朵浪花记清,
想要说声爱你,却被吹散在风里.
茫然回头,你在那里.

Me say:

The Ocean is great and almighty i can say, it fills up our love, happiness, sorrow, hopes and lives. Looking out towards the ocean is like looking towards everything. You feel of being hugged and surrounded, you could express and it just flushes to the middle of nowhere with the waves. The sound of waves and the smell of the ocean water makes it lively, as if it could understand. The ocean brought lives upon disappointment, took lives from lives. It's an unbounded space with lives and spirits. Look at it like nothing but everything.

It's beautiful to feel

When you see, you see their faces turning mad at u, pointing fingers to u, frowning and staring at you. When you hear you hear them scolding you, shouting at you, nagging you, forcing you. It's so uncomfortable. Why not give it a try the other way round? Feel it, you'll feel that they cared for you, worried for you, they actually loved you. That makes you feel homely, comfort, secure and loved. :-) Feelings are always beautiful. *y'all know who i meant "they"*

0LD13S R3C@LL 0LD M3M0R13S

Tonight, my mind caught hold of the names of some oldies i've heard when young, the longer i stayed quiet, the more i recalled. Wonder what triggers my mind to. So i searched youtube for the songs and Tadaa!, it's right there. As i listened to them, loads of memories returned back when i was still a young kid who knows of just playing, eating, helping my parents and my own desires. It was 15 years behind, when i was still playing happily at my dad's factory. That was where we stayed together years back. Me, my brother, mom, dad, uncle, aunt and 3 of my little cousins(there are still 3 of them yet to be born). We were all staying in a classic, simple and comfortable place back then. We used to work together, play together and dine together. Arguments are unavoidable at times. Dad often play these songs loud in da room and we will be runnin around wit da kids downstairs whereby aunt and mom will be preparing food and uncle will usually be reading newspaper in the office. It was so harmony back then that i was still so young to even know what's the meaning of "Harmony". During CNY, grandparents will come along together with another aunt and her husband. As usual, the music are played loud, mom n aunts will be cookin, grandma will be talking to us, dad and uncle n grandpa will be reading newspapers. 15 years past just like a dream to me, just like a blink of an eye. Everything is now different, I'm now a grown child, so are the other kids, uncle is no longer with us nor asking me to company him for food, or playing fireworks with me anymore. Gramps are getting older, Mom and dad is getting more busy with daily work. We no longer stay together, my family moved to our own house for 9 years already, so is my aunt and her kids, uncle left us for somewhere really far, gramps aren't around as often, brothers and cousins are grown and more outgoing, i barely see them myself. Sometimes i asked myself, how did these 15 years passed? how did i not realised? how many precious things and people have i wasted? It hurts everytime I thought about it, but the memories are just so Beautiful. It remains for eternity.

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A$ W3 AR3 @GlN9

When we were young, everything seems to be fine than now. Needless bother what's goin on around. When we were young, people seemed to be all around, everynight we slept sweet and sound. When we were young, schooling seems to be easier than now, friends seemed to be happier around.

Now, as we are aging, everything seems to be a worry now. Cautious of what's happening around. As we are aging, more people around found to be buried under the ground, often hear people crying out sound. As we are aging, working is no longer for the sake of "now", buddies are no longer staying around, couples are always fools gathered around.

How i wished people always gather around, for no worry of future and now, couples happily living and doesn't break their vow, everybody could sleep sweet and sound, kids are happily playing around, elderly aren't worried being buried to the ground, guys are happily working till dawn, girls are patiently waiting for their gown, no disease is spread around, politics stay stable on the ground, police do not need having extra rounds, no families will be having financial bounds. :-)

A D@y t0 R3m3Mb3R D@ d3C3@SeD

He left us for 3 years. I was still young before he left us, didn't really had good times wit him. He was a nice person, only that he might be a little naive at times. Flashed back times spent with him, generous person who actually tried to get along with me as i grow but he just don't have much time. Wasn't really thinking of those earlier as I was young and didn't know how to communicate in return. The only thing i recall when i am getting into the pre-matured age is that I brought him to where he tasted good Lamb steak and it was during his final stage in life. He was suffering from therapy earlier and then got into very bad condition after. The last i could remember seeing him, he was in a very weak condition, which he could barely speak or even recognize people he knew. Was heart-piercing seeing him this way. Wasn't a bad guy and why do he need to suffer such pain? Life's unfair, we don't have a choice. He was an outgoing person and I no longer see him now and after. Wondering how would it be if he didn't have that disease? Is he much relieved now in the afterlife? Does Afterlife really exists? Or will he be happier if he is still alive now? My dear uncle, Never mentioned that when you lived. Did you know you're not forgotten? for what good you did to us, for how you always looked and acted. What's left from you to us now is just memories, good memories. :-)

Years that made me a "Jerk" to you. Im Sorry.

Trying to start from scratch where you n me actually felt comfortable for at least a friend. Well I didn't know how and why did it went wrong. Asked you but it never came to an answer. From strangers to someone we know, from someone we knew to friends, from friends to close, and from close it somehow reversed. Till now, i don't really get what are we. Tried to really get off hands and start from scratch and you somehow just said "Jerk" that stunned me for several minutes. How'd I really piss you off, I don't know. But that really struck very hard. Tried not to utter a word but I'd better leave to prevent more conflict. Knowing u 5 years making me a "Jerk" that i never expected myself to be towards a friend or maybe to a stranger as well.... I always thought being a bad person doesnt mean a bad friend, having bad attitude doesn't mean they're treating u bad. I never know if im a bad person or if i had bad attitudes. Sorry for this silly post ppl, just let me emo for the night and i'll be fine. gdnite.

2010 年

2010年都开始了， 东西都不一样了。 在也不是小孩了。 有人说她是长不大的小孩， 我确说是小孩多好。 也要开始寻找了， 寻找工作， 寻找金钱， 寻找人生究竟是为了什么， 寻找一生的伴女。 漫长的路途一眨眼， 也走了不少的路程。 有时还要往后看一看， 看下留了什么人， 什么东西。 新年快乐。