Years that made me a "Jerk" to you. Im Sorry.

Trying to start from scratch where you n me actually felt comfortable for at least a friend. Well I didn't know how and why did it went wrong. Asked you but it never came to an answer. From strangers to someone we know, from someone we knew to friends, from friends to close, and from close it somehow reversed. Till now, i don't really get what are we. Tried to really get off hands and start from scratch and you somehow just said "Jerk" that stunned me for several minutes. How'd I really piss you off, I don't know. But that really struck very hard. Tried not to utter a word but I'd better leave to prevent more conflict. Knowing u 5 years making me a "Jerk" that i never expected myself to be towards a friend or maybe to a stranger as well.... I always thought being a bad person doesnt mean a bad friend, having bad attitude doesn't mean they're treating u bad. I never know if im a bad person or if i had bad attitudes. Sorry for this silly post ppl, just let me emo for the night and i'll be fine. gdnite.